What are the characteristics of a rock? Stable, dependable, able to withstand wind and waves, strong, immovable…
Peter didn’t start out as a particularly rock-like individual. In most areas (other than his ability to SINK like a rock) he was weak and unreliable. As bold as he was in answering questions (and asking them!), when it counted most, he denied that he even knew Jesus.
Can you wait, child,
while I work My will?
Can you trust Me?
Can you be still?
I am working things
which you cannot see.
Can you look up?
Keep your eyes on Me?
Can you wait, child?
Can you just hold on?
this dark won’t last
for I am the dawn.
Now then, sorrow,
do you think to best me?
No! It’s only in your power to test me.
Think to claim a victory
at these tears you wring from me?
You lose when to my knees you drive me.
You make me cry
so you make me pray
and the closer to Him I stay.
Be my companion, if you must,
till all this world crumbles to dust.
I am going home
and where I go
you cannot come.
“There but for the grace of God go I.”
Whenever I am tempted to be frustrated with a fellow Christian’s lack of desire to mortify sin, flee temptation, or truly surrender all, God reminds me of how long I tried to serve two masters. Sometimes I wonder how I managed for so many years with such a disconnect. I wonder how I could have considered myself truly walking with the Lord.
“Love so amazing, so divine,
Demands my soul, my life, my all…”
“Please help me know Your love.”
I have written that in my journals more times than I can count.
“Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.”
Something that has always struck me about that passage in Hebrews is that we are commanded to lay aside every sin AND weight – the implication being there are non-sinful things that we are a called to lay aside because they hinder us from running full speed after our Savior.
A year ago today, my little girl left – except she wasn’t actually my little girl.
“And whoever does not bear his cross and come after Me cannot be My disciple…
So likewise, whoever of you does not forsake all that he has cannot be My disciple.”
Hold what I love in open hands.
Make myself get back up again every time I fall down.
Yank my eyes off the things of this world, no matter how lovely they may be.
Sharpen my focus by whatever means necessary.
Fix my eyes on things I cannot see.
“And yet I did Thee wrong; dark thoughts of Thee came in–
A forward, selfish throng–and I allowed the sin!
I did Thee wrong, my God; I wronged Thy truth and love;
I fretted at the rod–against Thy power I strove.”
I couldn’t get my soul on straight this morning. It fit like a too big, hand-me-down pair of overalls.
What good to You are my struggles
what profit is there in my doubt?
So why are You silent when I call to You
why can’t I find You when I cry out?